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From Orlando

on June 24, 2016


You’d think a nurse would have no problem writing about grief yet I’ve created and collected three un-posted drafts in the last seven days. I thought to myself, oh, post about something else, but that felt wrong. Forty-nine people dead and more than that injured here in my home town — it’s on my mind — a lot.

My thoughts and emotions, spurred by the horrific shooting at Pulse, have no boundaries. They extend from rage toward the killer to heartfelt compassion for the families losses. There is also fear, fear that I am just as vulnerable. Within days after the shooting, I was going to get on a plane and taking my daughter to New York where she would settle and work. Planes are targets. New York — no need to explain its history with terrorism.  Worrying about myself — selfish — add guilt as one of the random thoughts.

The three drafts sitting in Word sound nonsensical when read over, but then, what happened was nonsensical. For any individual or group to believe that killing people elevates their belief system is insane. I could ramble on about this, but then I’d have four drafts…

There is pride.

I am proud of how our city is reaching out to the families and agencies of the LGBT community. I am proud of the business community’s generous donations. And, I am proud to call ORMC part of my work family. The perioperative and surgical teams worked endlessly until all the received victims were treated.

As it has been said:

Love. Love. Love. Love. Love.




6 responses to “From Orlando

  1. alhudgins23 says:

    Susan, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings from the front lines. I appreciate your candor, your dedication, and your civic pride. No words are adequate, but it’s still helpful to read them.

  2. DM says:

    Thank you for posting. Makes sense to me, you are having a hard time finding the words…I still can’t wrap my head around it. DM

  3. Dee says:

    As a fellow nurse I commend you for both your compassion and pride in your people, your community. We both know how jaded some nurses can be; that even when dealing with tragedy they remain detached. Not because they’re keeping personal emotions in check so as to better help the patient but rather, they’ve lost their empathy and everything has become rote. Another patient, another GSW, MVA, domestic violence. Clean up and go home. If I ever reach that point I’m done.
    Thanks for the beautiful entry…

  4. A @ moylomenterprises says:

    Wonderful post.
    I just saw a TED talk on vulnerability and it opened my eyes to the realness of what makes us human. Being vulnerable breaks down walls, allows us to be seen for who we really are, and allows us to be loved for our unique selves.

    I appreciate the vulnerability and honest of this piece. Hugs and thanks for being a professional caregiver. Your efforts and skills are appreciated. ☺ 🌷

  5. DM says:

    Just checking to see if the wordpress engineers have fixed things when I comment..they had me fill out some forms yesterday and today…besides your blog, there were @ least 2 other blogs where the same thing was happening..DM

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